Of course this is good news, but it does leave me feeling a little lost. Resume my life after so many months of being told to take precautions? The life I had before this doesn't really exist anymore. I can't resume that life, as ideal and pleasant as it was. Truth be told, I'm puzzled and a little angry to be told to resume life after the roller coaster we've been on.
I am very seriously considering looking for some type of paid employment, but I'm not sure what is open to me. "Having my life back" brings up more questions than answers, and I find myself more anxious than I have been for weeks. Its not that I enjoyed being an "invalid", but at least then I knew which doors were open and which ones were closed. I suppose it is easy to put your faith in "knowing", even if that knowledge is not very good. I suppose I just need to get used to the fact that I will never "know", and put my faith in God... yet again.
Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
3 comments:
Focus on family time and doing fun things together, like the mystery party! Then, occasionally remember that this is "normal life" and it's great! I'm glad the doctor says you don't have to be so cautious about being alone. Love you, Mom B.
"Normal", like there really ever is such a thing. "New normal", how about that?
This is good news! I'm sure you'll find the new normal and new doors will open. None of us ever "know"...the difficulty is being ok with that.
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